On The Eve Of June 30th, Giant Squid Deadline!!
I was telling Joan4 earlier this eve how seeing through the process of making 100 lenses, and now, reaching the deadline of this event, has caused me to slow down my pace.
Actually, I was going at warp speed by the end of last week to such an extent that I became ill and had to go to the hospital for rehydration.
This was my body telling me to slow down!
And it’s all process, afterall. You think you know something, like how to take care of yourself, and then you have to relearn the lesson. Yet in the relearning, a miracle (in perception) occurs.
An inner experience of rebirth always seems to happen to me whenever I get sick.
Perhaps the cleansing an illness affords explains this crystal clear reawakening.
Yet I am sure that the ending of the cycle of warp speed lens making also contributes to this phenomonen.
Let’s be honest. For six straight months, all of us going for this Giant 100 level of achievement have been juggling many other committments at the same time.
Yet looking back, it feels like a dream. A waking, lucid dream. A dream within a dream.
And I’ve also discovered that real creative work does not tolerate warp speed.
It requires inner spaces to a day; a walk or two with an old dog; a looking up at a pine branch and smelling that delicious fresh treeness.
We are who we become in the slowness of a quick summer breeze.
So sometimes walking away from the computer is a necessity, too, as well as walking away from the need to change the world.
So congratulations to all in advance for your achievement of Giant 50 or 100 status!! We will not even tolerate even for one moment the idea of not “making it.”
Because simply the act of creation is a job Well Done!!
I put together 2 lensographies:
July 1st, 2009 at 3:26 pm
Yes, the drive to hit a number really does limit what you’re able to create to your own satisfaction. Congrats on hitting the goal.